This is not a very good week for me. There are so many things that are just not going well right now. Me not posting very frequently is usually a good indicator that things are not good, as the things I need to say are not very positive or interesting. I am struggling on so many fronts right now and not seeing much success. It is so very unsettling for me with so much up in the air. I can not stand the instability, and do not really have the control to change the situation. I am on a deserted island, and I have to find a way to get off. I need to get the control back…thats what us control freaks do.
I had a great conversation with Jessica S. about NABBA and how there seems to be some life appearing in the upper echelons of NABBA. I hope it can pick up steam and progress can be made. I certainly will do what I can. I hope they can soon enough.
A good friend is coming into town next week that I really need to talk to. His advice is so valuable to me and beyond needed at this point.
I am starting to wonder if I am up for the fight anymore.